Blog: Journey to Health

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Hi Everyone! 

I love sharing my experiences with people who ask me how I stay healthy! I was recently approached by a long time fan, Tamara, on Twitter asking me about my opinions on weight loss and nutrition. Something about her made an impact on me, as she asked very intelligent and thorough questions. I KNEW this girl was SERIOUS about making changes in her life! I decided to bring her to the attention of Dr. Rutledge. Upon hearing about her strong will to lead a healthier lifestyle, he decided to help guide her in her journey. When I asked him what he would recommend for someone with Tamara’s health problems, he suggested the “Better Than Lipo” Plan with his nurse, Teri, guiding Tamara daily.
I thought it would be super cool and beneficial to all who are reading this if Tamara herself gave you all insight as to what it was like to go through this life changing process! So…we are presenting Tamara’s diary of her journey thus far on this site, and she will continue to post blogs regularly.
Unbeknownst to many, my weight range has fluctuated over 25 lbs in my adult life!
I will share my very personal journey about how I’ve gotten off of all medications, and how I have become free of food addiction in the coming weeks. But, right now take a look at Tamara’s kickoff to this life changing program! Follow and support her on her journey !!!!
Here’s an entry from Tamara’s personal blog:
My name is Tamara.  Deborah and I had been exchanging brief messages through Twitter and one day, I noticed fans were asking how she stays so fit and if she had any suggestions for them.  I then reached out to her with the same question, because I was at a point where I wanted to lose weight and it seemed like whenever I tried to, nothing would work.  I have high cholesterol and I just knew, I was finally at that place in my mind where I was ready to really DO something, once and for all.  We wrote back and forth and she came up with an idea.  If I were willing to commit myself 100% to this diet/program and blog along the way, they would let me do it all for free. After much thought, researching and talking it over with my fiance, I knew it was what I wanted; it was right for me, it was safe and most of all I was ready.  I want to be healthier.
My fiance, Deborah, Dr. Rutledge and his team have been such an amazing support for me as I’m going through this. I’m learning that I don’t need to eat a full plate of food to be full. I don’t need to have ‘meat, potatoes and a veggie’ to be healthy.  I’m learning to eat until I’m satisfied, which happens much quicker than I ever would have thought.  I’m still learning, I’m still losing weight and I’m still getting healthy. It’s not all because of this program, but this program is what’s helping me realize all of those things and more.  I know that if I can do this – someone who hates diets – anyone can do it, if you are ready to fully commit yourself.

I’m already proud of where I’ve gotten and where I’m going and I have Deborah Gibson to thank for that. Her kindness is amazing and I will be forever grateful to her, Dr. Rutledge and his staff. They didn’t have to do this for me; but they wanted to out of the goodness of their hearts and that means the world to me.

I’ve never been a big dieter.  In fact, I hate it.  I’ve noticed that, with me, whenever I purposely try to lose weight, I can’t.  I don’t.  I’ll usually actually gain weight instead.  And it seems whenever I don’t try to lose weight, then I do.  It gets quite frustrating.

I have Cerebral Palsy and was always told by my doctor growing up, that if I ever weighed over 105 lbs, I wouldn’t be able to walk because my legs wouldn’t be able to handle the extra weight.  Well, I’ve certainly went past that amount by over 20 pounds and I’m still walking.  But now as I’m getting older, I wonder if maybe my balance would be somewhat better, if I lost weight.  (Balance is something I struggle with, due to the CP).

I don’t smoke, I don’t drink – other than the occasional cocktail, beer or glass of wine – and last year at my annual exam, my doctor told me I have high cholesterol.  Very high cholesterol for someone my age.  When I got the total number, it scared me.  BIG TIME.  My doctor’s given me a year to try to lose weight to hopefully bring my cholesterol level down, so that I don’t have to take any medications; which I really don’t want to do.  In April of this year, I go back to the doctor and I hope to be given good news.  Along with high cholesterol, I also suffer from Irritable Bowel Syndrome.  Sometimes the pain becomes so severe, that I’ll be in tears, can barely walk and will be in the bathroom for 3-5 hours (really not fun, especially when it kicks in at 1am).  It’s gotten to the point where my fiancé has called the E.R., but all they do is laugh at him when he tells them my symptoms.  I’m frustrated.  I’m tired of the pain and I want to lose weight – and keep it off – once and for all.

I’m proud to say that I am determined to finally make that change; to finally lose weight and keep it off.  To (hopefully) naturally lower my cholesterol and hopefully ease my IBS symptoms.  Tomorrow morning, I am starting a new diet.  It’s stricter than most, but I don‘t think it will be unbearable.  I’ll be taking natural supplements and digestive enzymes along the way.  I have a lot of support from my fiancé (who will also be doing some of the diet with me), family and friends.  I feel different about it this time.  I WANT to do this.  I WANT to learn a healthier way of eating, to begin a new lifestyle with eating.  I’m EXCITED!!!  I want to have a permanent, healthier me.  The “me” I know I’m truly meant to be and I know I can do it.  I’m a little nervous about how my sensitive stomach might react to all the changes, but I’m willing and ready to roll with the punches.

I feel that this is a new chapter in my life with my fiancé and I’m very curious to see how it all turns out in a few weeks.

Bring on tomorrow!!!

Feb. 15th, 2013 – Day One.

I didn’t sleep very well last night, but that’s nothing new, since I often have insomnia and am a very light sleeper in general.  Surprisingly though, when my fiancé woke me up at 8:30 this morning, I felt fairly good.  I think a lot of it is/was nerves and excitement knowing that today was finally “thee day” and just the unknown as to how my body will react to all these changes.  After about a month of researching, talking the diet over with my fiancé, talking to Nurse Teri (who is extremely nice; very down to earth and I feel very comfortable with her – which is very important to me) and just getting in the right mindset; day one of my diet has officially begun.

I weighed myself first thing this morning:  128.4.  This diet, or maybe I should say “lifestyle change”, is supposed to last anywhere from 4-6 weeks for me, approximately.  I guess it all depends on how quickly I get to my goal weight.  I don’t have a huge amount to lose, but I have enough and I look forward to seeing – and feeling – the changes.

Next thing, I took my BTL all natural capsules on an empty stomach, which is what Teri recommended for me.  That is what I will do every morning while on this diet, after I weigh myself and before anything else.  Thank goodness they are all coated and kind of like gel caps, otherwise I would’ve had a heck of a time.  (I don’t do well with swallowing large pills)  Then breakfast.  I’m not always a big breakfast person.  A lot of it depends on how my stomach feels in the morning.  Thanks to my IBS, I tend to have a very sensitive stomach first thing in the morning and so a lot of times I’ll just drink some water for “breakfast”.  But, I have decided that is going to change.  I am going to eat breakfast of some sort, from now on, regardless how my stomach is making me feel.  So, today I had half a grapefruit with Stevia on top.  My fiancé got it ready for me:  He had half and I had the other half.  While eating each meal and/or snack, I am to take a digestive enzyme:  One at breakfast, if I only have fruit (but 2 if I have eggs), two at lunch and supper and one with snack (if I have a snack).  The digestive enzymes will supposedly eventually help my IBS symptoms.  I’m still a little skeptical about it, since nothing has ever worked for me in the past.  But I’m willing to try anything at this point, so we will see how it goes.  I ate half of the half of grapefruit, took my digestive enzyme and finished the remainder of the grapefruit.  It was very refreshing (and extremely juicy – lol) and surprisingly, I felt good after eating it.  (And I ate it in a bowl, so I had some juice to enjoy at the end too!)

For lunch I enjoyed a 4 oz pan cooked salmon filet (I can have up to 6 oz of protein at lunch and supper) seasoned with garlic powder, sea salt and pepper.  I put that on top of fresh spinach that I dressed with a mixture of lemon juice, white vinegar, water, salt, pepper, chopped cilantro, dried basil and garlic powder.  And 3 sourdough melba toasts on the side.  It was a very delicious, and surprisingly quite filling, meal.

Supper was also delicious.  My fiancé made us boneless, skinless chicken breasts with garlic, oregano and basil and a side of steamed green beans.  I was so full towards the end of the meal, that I had a hard time finishing the beans.  I’ve also noticed that not only have our meals been healthy, but they look pretty too!

I’m allowed one snack in the day, but I don’t think I’m going to need it.  I’m not a big snacker anyway and right now, I’m quite content and satisfied.  J

So…  so far, I feel good.  I’ve noticed that my stomach has been doing some “flip-flops” a little bit here and there, but I’m not going to say it’s because of the digestive enzymes.  It’s too early to tell; and even if it is, I’m sure it will get better as the weeks go by and as my body adjusts.  More than likely, it is a combination of everything:  bad sleep, nerves, maybe the capsules and maybe even the coffee I’m drinking right now that is sweetened with Stevia (which isn’t too bad, since I’m definitely a cream and sugar in my coffee kinda girl).  So, I’ll keep my eye on how my stomach is throughout the day; and the days and weeks to come.  Tonight I’ll be taking some “Night Kaps”, in hopes that they will help me sleep.  I can take one or two.  I’ll take just one at first and see how that goes.  I’m skeptical, but hopeful, because I’ve never had the best luck with sleeping pills.  They usually tend to do the exact opposite; it’s like I just downed a load  of caffeine instead and am up all night (but am drowsy at the same time.  Yeah, it’s a weird combination lol)  Oh how I hope it works, because it’s been quite a long time since I remember truly having a full night’s sleep.  Dreamland, here I come (and hopefully without any interruptions)…

Feb. 16th – Day Two

So, dreamland without interruptions didn’t quite happen last night.  I’m not all that surprised, because like I mentioned before, sleeping aids never seem to work for me.  But, I’m going to give it another shot and take two of them tonight and see what happens.  I noticed as I was trying to go to sleep last night, I had a bit of a stomach ache.  I’m not sure what it is related to, but I’m keeping my eye on it.  Hopefully that will pass soon.

On to better news!  My weight today is 126.4!  So I’ve lost 2 pounds overnight!  I’ve been told this can happen when first starting the diet.  It was a pleasant surprise to actually see it on my scale this morning, because I didn’t want to have any expectations.  So that was a great feeling.  Something is working.  J

I didn’t get ready as quickly this morning, so I skipped breakfast and also skipped my breakfast digestive enzyme; but of course, took my 5 BTL on an empty stomach as recommended.  I have been told I don’t have to eat breakfast if I don’t want to, and since I need to allow at least 3 hours between each digestive enzyme intake, I decided the best thing to do was to just wait until lunch, since my fiancé and I tend to eat lunch before noon.  The menu for lunch today:  scrambled egg whites with salt, pepper and garlic with a side of cucumbers seasoned with salt and pepper.  I love eggs, but I’m not a big egg white person.  So I knew this was going to be MY personal “challenge”, if you will.  I miss my runny yolks, but I’ll live.  The egg whites really weren’t all that bad, it will just take some getting used to.  This is all about change and acquiring new tastes and I’m totally up for that.  I’ve always been open to trying new foods.  (Even though yes, I know egg whites aren’t “new”, but eating just them is “new” to me.)  **Found out a couple days later, that I can actually have whole eggs!!  So, runny egg yolks, here I come!!**  Our meal for supper was absolutely DELICIOUS.  My fiancé made chicken breasts seasoned with garlic, sea salt, pepper and cumin.  Very tasty!  I highly recommend that to anyone, regardless if you’re on a diet or not.  Definitely a new favorite.  We also had fresh spinach topped with strawberries (a handful for me, as that would also count as my “snack” for the day) and our yummy cilantro vinaigrette.  Very tasty and filling meal, if I do say so myself.  My honey sure knows his spices!

So, I mentioned in my “Intro” that I suffer from Irritable Bowel Syndrome and I’m going to focus on that while periodically while writing this blog.  I’m sure there are plenty of people reading this who suffer from it as well; or something close to it.  I’ve had IBS for about 11 years now and, to put it bluntly, it sucks.  I’ve learned throughout the years, that digestive issues like mine are far more common than I’ve realized, but yet, no one wants to talk about it.  And of course, who wants to talk about what happens in the bathroom?  It’s certainly not that most comfortable conversation to have; but if my blog will help some people, especially those who are considering doing this program and have stomach issues, I‘m gonna go there and talk about it.  I’ve tried so many of the different OTC medications suggested by my doctor, but none of them work.  In fact, most of them make my symptoms worse.  There are various forms of IBS and I usually have IBS-D (with diarrhea), with occasional constipation.  For me, it seems like anything can be a trigger, especially stress and lack of sleep.  Sometimes my IBS is fine.  No symptoms whatsoever.  And sometimes, I’ll eat something and be fine, but then I’ll eat it again, and the IBS shows up.  It’s SO frustrating.  Yesterday I had my first phone call consultation with Dr. Rutledge (who is very friendly and easy to talk to, as well – too bad all doctor’s can’t be like that!) and at one point during the conversation, we focused on my IBS.  He told me that that  will be his  personal goal for me; not just weight loss, but getting rid of my Irritable Bowel Syndrome and MAN, am I looking forward to THAT.  I pray that it finally happens, once and for all.  So while I’m on this diet, I’ll be paying close attention every day as to how my body, specifically my bowels, are responding to everything that is happening.  So far I’ve been experiencing slight bloatedness and a little diarrhea, which seem to happen after I take the digestive enzymes; especially after breakfast (if I eat breakfast) and lunch specifically.  Nurse Teri told me the digestive enzymes will help and that it will take some time for the enzymes to work themselves out, since the body’s getting used to getting more veggies and such; so I’m going to just continue to keep my eye on it, take them as directed and just be patient.  It’s definitely nothing unbearable and nothing I can’t handle, which in itself is a nice change.  I also had a surprise conversation with Deborah Gibson during that same phone call and it just feels so good to know she’s in my corner.  Knowing she was also doing this program at one point and knows what I’ll be going through, is just very comforting.  I’ve been a fan of hers since I was 13 years old (so, for 25 years) loll and Deborah is just so down to earth and relatable, that I felt like I was talking to a friend.  Such a super cool thing.  I’m so thankful that she and Dr. Rutledge are giving me this wonderful opportunity.  I truly am very grateful.

Feb. 17th – Day Three

Today I lost a half a pound.  I weigh 125.8.  I’ve been told an individual’s weight loss while on this can fluctuate from a ½ pound to 1 pound daily.  I’ll admit, I was hoping to see another 2 lbs gone, but I’m happy to just be losing weight in general and knowing that I’m doing it the healthy way and not depriving myself of food, like so many “diets” do.

Even though I’m still in the early stages of the program, today is the first day I feel run down and kind of “blah”.  Not tired (even though those 2 Night Kaps still didn’t really do any good, but I’m going to continue taking them as Dr. Rutledge recommends – thank goodness they are all natural and non-habit forming), just “blah”.  You know what I mean.  It’s almost as if I don’t have any energy.  It could be because I need to crank it up on my water intake today (I was a bit of a slacker in that department yesterday, with only 4 ½ glasses instead of 6.  I discovered 6 of my tall glass equals 2 liters of water, which suggested amount at least), so maybe I’m feeling a bit dehydrated.  It could also be that I’m going through a detox, if you will, from sugar.  I’ve never had a huge sweet tooth; although I do have my moments and I LOVE my chocolate – and I’m not a huge pop fanatic; although I go through my phases with that too.  My thing is having sugar and flavored creamer in my coffee.  Or going to the coffee shops and getting, what my Grandma always called a “fancy drink”, you know the ones…  loaded with caramel, chocolate or some flavored syrup, espresso, whole milk, whipped cream; not to mention calories, but OH SO GOOD.  (Wow, my mouth  almost started drooling for a minute there loll.)  Anyways, I don’t use a ton of sugar or flavored creamer in my coffee, but enough to probably be making me go through some sort of withdrawal.  It’s fun.  loll  I hope I feel better tomorrow.

Feb. 20th – Day Five

So, I’m on the 5th day of this program and so far, I’ve lost a total of 4.8 pounds!!  I noticed yesterday that my middle area (aka “the love handles“) is slowly starting to slim down.  I haven’t seen that in a very long time and it sure is welcomed!  I have to say, I’m quite proud of myself. J

I’m still  having sleepless nights, despite taking two Night Kaps a half hour before bedtime; but I continue to take them as Teri told me it will take a few days for them to reset my body.  I hope it happens soon; I’m REALLY looking forward to finally getting a good night’s sleep for the first time in months (although, I’ve been suffering from insomnia for years now).  So unfortunately in the mornings, I’m pretty tired and feel a little run down.  But as the day goes on, I feel better.

My IBS symptoms have started to improve since my last blog entry, which is very impressive.  It’s a nice feeling to be able to run errands around town and not worry about needing to use the bathroom along the way.  So, there are definitely improvements happening in that department.  I’m looking forward to seeing the trend continue.

Feb. 21st – Day Six

I weighed myself this morning and I only lost 4 oz.  I’m now exactly 122 lbs.  I will admit, I was disappointed to see that number, since I’ve been so “spoiled” with my weight loss since the beginning of doing this program.  But then Teri reassured me that I’m doing very well with my weight loss and reminded me that not every day is going to be a one or two pound weight loss.  I guess I was getting a little “weight loss greedy”.  I’m just happy I’m losing weight in general.  Period.

So, in my “intro blog”, I mentioned that I have very high cholesterol, especially for someone my age, which is my main reason for doing this diet/program.  Dr. Rutledge suggested I put those numbers in my blog and I’m going to do just that.

As of 3/12/12:
TOTAL CHOLESTEROL:  291
TRIGLYCERIDES:  144
HDL CHOLESTEROL:  67
CHOL/HDL RATIO:  4.34
LDL CHOLESTEROL:  195

Some of the reasons behind my cholesterol levels is probably genetic, since I have a family history of it on both sides.  If that is the case, some of it cannot be lowered.  Dr. Rutledge said this program may actually lower my cholesterol levels (those that can be lowered), as it’s done that for some of his patients in the past.  Soon I am due for my annual exam and at that time I will request to have another test done to check the levels.  When I get the results, I will post them here to compare.  I’m extremely curious to see if they have gone down.  I’m really praying they are.

Feb. 26th – Day 10

Today hasn’t been the best of days.  Sunday morning, I got down to 120.6 lbs. I was so excited!  I was even able to fit into a pair of jeans that have been pretty tight for quite a while.  (Not fit perfectly in to them, but definitely a lot more comfortably.)  I was so happy!  Then Monday morning came and my weight was exactly 121.  Now today my weight is 121.4.  So, I’ve gained almost one pound back.  I’m bummed and confused, since I’ve been doing everything right; eating what I’m supposed to, drinking as much water as I’m supposed to, taking all my supplements, etc.  But I also am PMS’ing right now and so I’m wondering if maybe that has something to do with it.  Whatever the reason, it’s still not something a person wants to see on the scale after working so hard and doing the right things to lose weight.  I’m trying not to be discouraged, but I am.  I’m hoping once my body is done retaining water, or whatever is going on, I will get right back on track.  I guess everyone hit’s a set back every once in a while, while dieting.

Feb. 28th – Day 13

Well, I’m definitely doing better today than my last entry and I’m not ‘down’ anymore.  My weight today is 120.6.  Even though I “gained” a bit, I’m ok with it.  The best part of my day, however, actually happened last night (if that makes sense).  For the first time in months, I had a very good and restful night’s sleep.  I mean, months.  I honestly can’t even remember the last time.  I think it’s a combination of a few things:  The two Night Kaps I take every night, the magnesium pill I’ve been taking for the past few days and most definitely, our new bed.  It’s amazing how just something like that can make a difference.  But honestly, I think it’s a combination of all those.  I’ve read about people taking the Night Kaps and feeling “rejuvenated and refreshed” the next morning and quite honestly, I was beginning to have my doubts.  But finally, it happened and I couldn’t be happier.  Now I’m actually looking forward to going to sleep tonight!!

March 1st – Day 14

I’m learning how I don’t need to eat an entire plate of food to be full and I’m also learning that I don’t need to eat to be full; only satisfied.  I’ve always been a big eater, ever since I was a child.  I live in the Midwest and my family has always been taught the “3 must have’s” at supper:  Meat (usually beef), vegetable and potatoes.  I love my potatoes and I’ll admit, I miss them right now.  But I’m also learning I don’t need to eat like that all the time.  Enjoying a meal like that every once in a while I’m sure will be fine, once I’m at my goal weight and no longer on this program (in moderation, of course), but it’s not a necessity.  I’m also noticing that my tastes are slowly changing…  but not necessarily for the better quite yet.  lol  My favorite meat by FAR is chicken.  The main protein in our diet right now is chicken, fish and eggs.  I never thought I’d say this, but I’m getting sick of chicken.  But I’m realizing it’s not the chicken, it’s the spices.  We’re a little limited to the types of spices we can use on this diet, because a lot of the ones we used before, all had sugar in them (who knew?), but today we went grocery shopping and picked up some curry.  Hopefully that will spice things up and make chicken taste better to me again.

I’m also noticing how I’m currently wanting everything I’m not supposed to have right now.  I want pizza, chocolate, cheese, bread, pasta, peanut butter, cream and sugar in my coffee, etc.  But I’m also noticing that almost as quickly that I want these things, the craving starts to go away (but not the longing for cream and sugar in my coffee lol).  So I guess that means it’s all in my head.  It’s what my head wants; not necessarily my stomach.

And since I’m talking about food, I have to share this.  So, the best thing that happened today was that my fiancé and I decided to treat ourselves to filet mignon.  (Yes, that is actually something we are allowed to eat while on the program!)  We’ve never gotten it before, because it’s spendy, but we really wanted a break from the chicken and fish.  And let me tell you, that steak was GOOD.  It’s amazing how “melt in your mouth goodness” can taste (that‘s what my fiancé said), especially when you haven’t had red meat in so long.  He  cooked it absolutely perfectly and I think it was a good way for us to recharge our batteries, so to speak.  I sure am a lucky girl.  He’s so amazing and an awesome cook – especially when it comes to steak!  J  I think it’s a safe bet that we might be getting filet mignon again sometime, maybe once we get down to a certain weight or something, as another treat.  Sure, it was expensive and not something we’d usually buy for ourselves, but man, it was totally worth it and something we definitely needed.  J

March 4th – Day 16

So,  I’ve been on this program for almost three weeks now and for about a week, I was stuck at 120 lbs.  Well, I am very pleased to say that I have finally broken that “trend” and as of this morning, I am officially 119.2!!  It’s been years since I’ve been in the teens and I’m so excited and proud of myself!  My goal weight is becoming even closer!!

Yesterday my mom and I went to our local bridal fair and I was definitely tested.  I walked past all the booths offering free samples of their food without a second glance, even though it smelled and looked delicious.  Later,  I was at my parents’ house for a while and when I went in to the kitchen to get a glass of water, there on the counter was a box of Girl Scout cookies.  And not just any GS cookies, but my absolute favorite – Samoas.  (You know, the chocolate, caramel and coconut ones?  Yeah, those.)  If I wanted to, I could have opened that box and popped an entire cookie in my mouth.  But I didn’t and even though I really wanted to, I didn’t want to at the same time.  I knew I didn’t need it and I knew that my body didn’t need it.  If I want to continue to stay on track and get to my goal weight, I have to continue to make small sacrifices, even if that means passing up a free food sample or a cookie.  I know it’s not like I’m never going to be able to enjoy those things again, just not right at this moment and yesterday, I was ok with that.

March 7th – Day 19

I’ve been on the diet for 3 weeks now and I have to be honest, this has been the hardest day for me so far.  I’ve heard from a lot of my “dieting friends”, that at some point in every diet we reach that point where we want to cheat.  I know I talked about wanting all the foods I’m not supposed to have in a previous blog, but today was different for some reason.  Today I was 100% completely tired of my food choices.  I wanted pizza and Mountain Dew BIG TIME.  At one point today, I had the “Devil and Angel” scenario on my shoulders.  The Angel telling me why I don’t need the pizza and pop and the Devil telling me to go ahead and do it.  I listened to the Angel and I will continue to.  This diet is not going as smoothly as I thought it would, since I’ve been at a stand-still with my weight for well over a week now.  I’m finally back down to 119 lbs, after being 120 again yesterday.  I’m frustrated.  I know I’ll get to my desired goal eventually, I just didn’t realize it would be this difficult.  But I’ll do it and will continue on.  I have to.  Not just because I want to and because I want to continue to make Deborah proud, but for ME.  I have to do this for me.  Hopefully tomorrow will be easier.

NOTE FROM TERI: I think it is great that Tamara is pointing out that we ALL have days where it seems like we are getting no where. The difference between those that are healthy and fit and those that are not is often just one thing: Perseverance. This isn’t a “diet” but a lifestyle change, and like any lifestyle change, there will be sometimes when we say, “Why am I doing this again?”.  The reason most people turn from a healthy change back to their old ways is because the fat is not the problem–it is a side effect. When we eat to excess or eat foods filled with toxins, or empty calories, our bodies store these toxins in fat so that we don’t die.
Having excess fat is often the catalyst for making changes, but then once some of the fat is gone, we realize it is not they physical that needs correcting, it is almost always the emotional. As the immediate burden of what was bothering us about ourselves is eliminated (the pounds already lost) we are still left with some self-sabotaging behaviors, and if one is open and self aware, they begin to realize, like Tamara is doing, that the fat is not to blame, and one begins to eat less and more healthy not because they HAVE to (to get rid of fat) but because they WANT to (health).
It is so exciting to see people to get the bottom of things!
March 11th – Day 22I am extremely pleased to say that I am officially out of the 119/120 lbs range!!  My weight, as of this morning, was 117.2!!!  I am so excited!!  The last couple days, I’ve lost about a ½ each day.  I’m hoping that if this continues and I don’t come any other little road blocks like before, I should be at my goal weight in just a couple more weeks.  Here’s to hoping!!I still haven’t really noticed any changes in my physical appearance yet, other than my double chin is almost gone now, which is wonderful!  I think my stomach and hips might be getting smaller, but it’s such a slight change, that I just can’t see it yet.  And I still have cellulite on my butt and I’m hoping that will go away soon too.  No one likes to see that.  But even though I still can’t really see the changes, I can feel them for sure.  My stomach is definitely getting smaller in regards to the amount of food I now consume in one meal.  I get satisfied/full much faster now, which has taken some getting used to since I’ve always been a big eater; but it is definitely a welcomed change.  I’m still hoping the weight loss will eventually help my balance some, but right now, I think it’s too soon to tell.So, last week, my blog so far, was finally posted on Deborah’s official website.  Once it was up, I was finally able to share it with my family and friends on Facebook.  I immediately started receiving tons of support and “congratulations”.  I’ve also been receiving some very kind messages on Twitter, telling me how much I’ve inspired them.  Not just from doing the diet in general, but because of having Cerebral Palsy and doing the diet at the same time.  People are so thoughtful and they inspire ME to do better and to work hard at reaching my goal.  That was one of the reasons I decided to do this diet.  I want to show people that ANYONE can do this.  ANYONE can get healthy and change their eating lifestyle – even those of us with a disability.  Do not ever let anything or anyone stop you, because you CAN do it.

March 14th – Day 25Tomorrow marks exactly one month since I began this program.  It’s hard to believe and it’s gone by so quickly!  My starting weight, if you remember, was 128.4.  As of this morning, my current weight is 115.8.  I’ve lost 12.6 pounds!!  I can’t believe it!!  I’m not far from my goal weight now!!Deborah asked me today, “How do you FEEL?” and you know what?  I feel GREAT!!  Simply, GREAT!!!  It’s hard to put in to words how this has affected me so far, other than to say, I just feel so much healthier.  I feel like a new me.  And I’m so happy knowing that I AM healthier.  I know that I am doing what is right and best for me.  I’ve also noticed, that I really haven’t had any IBS symptoms at all since starting this program and for me to say that, is a HUGE deal.  I can’t remember ever going this long without some sort of issue.  The only time I’ve noticed a problem in that area, is if I haven’t been able to get much sleep.  Lack of sleep has always been a trigger for me.  But honestly, that’s only happened once while being on this program.  Other than that, no episodes at all!  I cannot wait to see if it continues once I’m able to start incorporating other foods in to my diet.I’m also finally able to retrain my thinking about what I’m doing.  What I mean by that is, this really isn’t a diet.  It’s a lifestyle.  I know I’ve already pointed that out in previous blogs, but it’s a hard thing to accept sometimes.  I never realized just how much our lives revolve around food.  Go out shopping with your mom or some friends and what do you usually do?  Go out for coffee or a snack afterwards.  Holidays.  That is something that’s been hard for me recently.  This will be the first time ever that I will not be enjoying my mom’s traditional St. Patrick’s Day lunch.  In fact, she’s not even going to have it, since I won’t be able to eat any of it other than the cabbage.  I’ll admit, I’m bummed about it.  It’s always been something I’ve looked forward to.  I’ve also always looked forward to the Shamrock shake at McDonalds.  This has been the first year I’ve never had that, either.  But you know, it’s really not the end of the world.  It’s just food.  It’s just ice cream.  And right now, I have more important things to think about than that Guinness beer or my mom’s yummy soda bread.  I’ll be able to have those things again…  in moderation.  I’m also learning that is the key – MODERATION.  I’m realizing and retraining my brain that, when I am able to finally enjoy some pizza again, to not pig out on it.  Only eat a slice or two.  Moderation.  Have a salad with it and fill up on that more, so I can still get that pizza fix.  If I have sweet potato fries, to not go overboard.  Moderation.  If I put cream and sugar back in my coffee, to not put as much as I used to.  Moderation.  We live in a world of super size and filling up our plate portions.  And I don’t know about you, but if my plate is full, I feel like I have to finish it (or at least most of it).  And then afterwards I feel absolutely miserable, like I’m about to bust at the seams.  And I think to myself, “Why did I just eat all that??“  We don’t have to eat that way.  There is no rule that says we must.  And “moderation” has always been a scary word, in a way.  At least to me.  Who wants to eat anything “in moderation”?  What fun is that?  Well, I’m going to do just that.  I don’t want to gain back everything I’ve worked so hard for.  I don’t want to start suffering from IBS symptoms all the time, that keep me up all hours of the night again.  I want to be able to enjoy a treat every now and then and not feel guilty, so I’m going to enjoy those treats, those moments, in moderation.  I want to look good in my wedding dress.  It’s going to be difficult, but doing this program has been a good eye opener for me (and for my fiance).  It’s shown me that I didn’t eat nearly as healthy as I thought and processed foods are filled with ingredients I can’t even pronounce.  If I can’t pronounce them, why would I want them in my body?  Why would anyone?

I feel great, I want to continue to and I plan on staying this way.  I plan on staying healthy.  And you know what else?  I look good.  I LOOK GOOD and I’m not too proud to say it.  I deserve to say it.  Here’s to the next 8/9 pounds.  🙂

 

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